Tammy Renee Smith

First of all, I just wanted to let you know how very sorry I am for your loss. I live in Alabama (I was born in the northeast but got over that), and learned of Joe's transgressions right after he had committed them. I was 9 weeks pregnant when I left Joe and came home. Joe pointed a gun at my feet and pulled the trigger. It was loaded. He claimed that he did not know that it was loaded. Gun safety 101 is that you NEVER point a barrel of a gun to someone that you do not intend to kill. He missed my foot by an inch. Our relationship was hanging by a thread at that point regardless. That was the breaking point. To say that his release has triggered PTSD is an understatement. Him almost shooting me is just the worst of it. There were numerous transgressions that proceeded it. I dont regret my relationship with him at all. It gave me the person that I love, and will always love above all others. Our son. Please know that joe had no hand in raising our son, or his first wife Darcy's. They are both exceptional young men with so much to offer to this world. I remember that while i lived there, Joseph would come for visitation with his father. He was a delightful little boy that has grown into a wonderful young man. Our son Jacob is nothing like Joe. He is a wonderful and present husband and father, and to my  knowledge has never been physical with a woman. If he was, I would let him face the consequences unlike Joe's motherl. I let him know what his sperm donor did.  He has always said that if he ever met Joe, the first thing he would do is punch him in the face. Im pretty sure that the second thing he would do is to make it so that Joe cant breath without mechanical ventilation if you know what i mean.  Joe is terrible. I will not refute that in the least. I bought  20 dollars in Jpay (basically prison stamps) just so that I could tell him what a piece of shit he was. Then when he told me he has prostate cancer and pulled the woe is me bullshit, I let him have it. I work in healthcare. I have for over 20 years. Maybe 15 years ago I would have fallen for this bullshit, but not now. And, you are not my patient. I unloaded on him with 15 years of pent up dealing with bullshit. Pretty sure I took screenshots of it because it felt so good. HMU if you want them. Plus,  with my psychology background i metaphorically took a stick to his knee caps and made him feel like a piece of shit just because i could, it was fun for me, and he deserves it. I didnt even spend the whole 20 dollars, but i consider it an investment that was well worth it. I can be incredibly brutal verbally. I dont know if my PTSD rant and general assholery makes you feel better, but trust me it should. I know Joe, and I know psychology, and the mental stabs are incrediby harder to heal. Just know that sticking an emotional knife in him makes me heal just a little bit more, and makes his emotional state just a little bit worse. Please feel free to contact me. I pray for your family daily.

Marty

That piece of shit will never see the outside of prisonwalls as long as i live that is my promise to u tammy. He almost got me an my familly not long after he took u...   LOVE Joshua